PLSP Part 3 ( Friends Forever ... We'll miss him )
today is our last day as INSTEPians. it's been two months and couldn't believe time moved this fast. i feel like just few days ago we register ourself here and now we're preparing ourself to go back home for Hari Raya Haji, before starts our OJT on the 4th.
they are different and they will be my good friends forever.
it's been almost 5 months, we've been PLSPian, and today it's been almost 3 weeks we lost a friend. a good friend.
i still remember that day.
it was after friday prayer when i was busy searching something and my mobile received an sms from a friend that told me about the news. it was a shocked and i could feel my heart-beat, it was faster than ever and my sweat came from nowhere wetted myself. this ain't true, and i called my friend back to make sure the news. it was true.
the news spread among us as fast as it could. everybody was shocked, even some had their tears on this.
i felt like empty for a moment and i still couldn't believe the news.
they went for his funeral and back with sad stories about the family. i feel sympathy for them and i could feel how hard this could've been for them. he was the eldest-son of the family and losing him was such a tragedy especially for his dad. nobody had the guts to talk to his dad.
strange i guess, as i never felt this kind of sadness before. losing him as a friend really put my emotion unstable, each time people open a story about him.
he wasn't really closed with me, but i feel like as other PLSPian, he was a part of us.
i lost few people in my life before and i was strong enough to hold my tears i guess, except for tok ayah, as i was 12 years old during that time. i lost few school-mates too, but i never felt like i feel now.
it's strange thing, for almost two weeks, my heart will put myself to think about him and pray for his peace, al-fatihah, everytime i finished my pray. longer i sat on the praying mat, tears could drop from my eyes.
each time, i read news about car accident, i couldn't stop myself to think how the accident happened on him. life is fragile, as adzfar said. each time i drive my car, i could think about him and about the accident.
he's a good guy. i still remember the day we sat together during a tea break at permata dining hall, talking about the future in front of us. how we want to settle ourself with Petronas, how we shared the dream to further our study abroad.
i still remember the day we shared stories that motivates us during Dr. Halimah class, where we shared almost the same experience on dealing the wheel of life. 'Kisah saya lebih kurang macam dia. Sebelum saya masuk UTM, saya sentiasa dapat apa yg saya nak. Saya nak dapat keputusan baik dalam exam, saya dapat 8A PMR, saya dapat scholar petronas, malah saya score dalam degree saya. saya ada pingat yg diterima atas kecemerlangan saya di UTM. Lecturer, kawan-kawan kata saya takkan ada masalah untuk dapat keje nanti. Tapi, bukan semudah itu. Dah banyak interview saya pergi, tapi tak dapat. Even dgn Petronas pun tak dapat. Saya baca sebuah buku. Sebuah pokok takkan tumbuh dgn satu biji benih. Tapi dari banyak biji benih yg disemai, barulah ada kebarangkalian untuk anak pokok tumbuh. Ertinya, kita perlu sentiasa mencuba, dan bukan sekali sahaja. ' Those were his words, well not 100%.
i still remember the last time when i met him. i invited him and koko for hari raya. i went to his house, and had maghrib pray there. and the moment i drove my car and say good-bye to him, that stood at the front of his house door, that was the last time i saw him. 'terima kasih. bawak kereta elok-elok. jumpa lagi.'
we'll miss him. Al-Fatihah.
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